Check out this french interview Marion did with Paris Match. The interview has been translated by Google translator:
Paris Match. In “Pretty Things”, the movie from the book of Despentes Virginia in 2001, you were a character steep, black, with morbid impulses. The new production of Jacques Audiard makes one think of this disturbing facet of your personality. It is in you?
Marion Cotillard. Not anymore. But at a time, yes, I was much darker than today. What has not changed is my side flayed alive.
Teenager, you were suffering?
Teenager and later I was tortured in a painful uneasiness … Like a lot of people in that period.
You take drugs?
No, my instinct of life was much stronger than self-destruction. Also, I saw around me examples of people who were lost in drugs. It kept me away from hazardous substances. I was in some excess, I smoked too much, sometimes I drank more than reason. But I was always afraid of losing total control.
This malaise long did it take to dissipate?
Yes, it was a long way. And I am fortunate to have always been surrounded by the love of my parents, benevolence to some friends or lovers. All this has protected me from self-destruction.
Well you play these characters there.
I do not know but what is certain is that I love them. Stephanie in “De Rust and Bone” is in denial about his unhappiness. It is enclosed in a shell to give the illusion that nothing can reach it. And, in fact, inside, it’s a disaster.
Unlike followers of the Actors Studio, you seem not to like get the emotions in your own personal memories.
No, never, I think it’s too dangerous. I am unable to go digging through painful personal memories. However, around me inspires me to play. Thus, to embody old Edith Piaf, I took the gesture of my great uncle who lived with us at a time. My brothers have recognized right away! This way his body moved, his hands … Or, when Piaf meets Marlene Dietrich, her idol, I took a look subdued little girl I was close then.
Have you been tempted by analytical work on yourself? To relieve some suffering as much as to know you better?
If, of course. And that’s exciting. The human soul, mine, I’m interested! Some therapists I met working on the body’s memory, the trauma as expressed in our physical behavior. I need me to work on the head and body.
You did it to be better with you or to refine your acting talent?
Work on humans would necessarily make the actor more just. What I discovered as a person necessarily reflects on my work as an actress.
Everyone notices your radiant vitality since you had a child.
I grow up. I am more clear.
You keep a journal?
I did when I was younger. I stopped. But I’m still in need to become aware of who I am, how I evolve. I do not know if I perceive all the steps precisely, but I know something ahead of me, I do not fall asleep. I pick up things, I get rid of others, I sill that prevents me from moving forward.
What prevented you from growing, which has parasitized this clarity in movement to which you aspire?
Well … [long hesitation.] Fear. Fear of not being up to par. Insecurity. It is difficult to analyze. It can disappear so quickly, that fear. At the same time, it remains so entrenched, if not derogated. I have old habits of fear so ingrained. When I realize, I see that these fears prevent me from moving forward.
But what are they? Sometimes you evacuate, this fear?
Sometimes I surpass! The nagging fear is caused by my need for recognition …
After your countless international awards?
Yes, it is a form of pathology, I think. I rid myself one day? Fear sometimes prevents me from being quiet …